. : dark dreams : .

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 04:18:37 GMT

You scored as Tony Almeida, You would never let anything happen to the one you love, even if that means sacrificing more. You help out when needed and are very tactical when it comes to putting a plan together. You can get shot in the neck and be back up in four hours. You are strong and a great friend.

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Tony Almeida

85%

Michelle Dessler

80%

Chloe O'Brien

75%

Jack Bauer

70%

David Palmer

70%

Sherry Palmer

65%

Kim Bauer

25%

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. : two cents on idolatry : .

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 04:23:55 GMT

this, where you look me up
with Hungry Hot Eyes
is my dream
my Butterfly Can't-Breathe dream
but
the absence of a Second Glance
crushes my Heart-Hope
that we would end the day Entangled

* * * * *

The Surrender When There Was No Fight

I live by your thoughts, your art
But what perplexes me is how I go about this so insanely

I fall so madly in love with he who preaches
Your thoughts
And could not imagine myself any more disturbed
Than one who drives past his garnished haven
Wondering where he is penning these words
That reflect the ultimate genius of you
Because that is who I am

I find myself sweetly consumed by he who spins
Your art, oh divinely-wrought art into sounds that dance in the dark
For the brightest lights boil my tears into living fire
And I could not imagine myself any more depraved
Than to feel you taste them on your tongue
Like water from the eternal living fountain
Because that, my love, is who I am

And for as long as I shall seek
To follow my heaven-given path just as they demand
I will come crawling, flying in colors
They have never seen
Only to find those who serve you
And bow down.

* * * * *

. : archive : .

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 04:15:04 GMT

Something beautiful
About not fearing anything
The world in irrevocable harmony
Igniting at the touch of my hand

And I walk as on water
Even while the flames lick
At my fingers

Something ethereal
In the way my step carries me
Night to day not once feeling my heart beating
Knowing it not to break

And I walk as on water
Even while the flames lick
At my fingers

And then

Something alarming
In the tremble I feel
At the slice of his words
And the flicker of blood

And I sink below the surface
Fall and taste and drown
Awe overtakes me
As I begin to breathe

Something terrifying
About the hum in my veins
The hand I reach out to
Pull him up

And I sink below the surface
Fall and taste and drown
Awe overtakes me
As I begin to breathe

* * * * *

Indestructible-
she thinks,
Is what i Was
Before i swallowed
what i was Never meant to taste.

and Now the glass is Broken,
Just under my stare
into the Reflection.
flat and cold to the touch,
But Twisted broken pieces,
Crystal Carnage of
the life that i once knew.

I love when the black tears in
And I don't know where I'm looking
Maybe I can forget your face after all

But sometimes I wonder
You're still able to reach me
With your laugh and eyes
So fierce
A world away
But still in my head

* * * * *

And now she's been
Where dreams have glanced
But still it tears her heart apart
Her mark is quickly fading

And now she's seen
The other side
The picture is no longer
Still so black and white

My lungs are electric
And I just wish you would
Transcend
You and me
How high could we go
If we joined forces

* * * * *

spent too many thoughts on you over the years
all that got for me, broken mirrors and tears
did i think somehow daydream turned solid?
guess i thought i was meant to have what i wanted

now
and now
what is there left for me
to steal from tonight?

can't fix my life up with glue from the gutter
gotta start my way back to when it was better
never thought i'd want to erase
the only part of me ever fell into place

* * * * *

why does one have to do with the other?
why should you come to love
the soul you took to bed
there is no evidence
you got inside his head

just because
you stop to try to breathe
everytime his eyes do not deceive
everytime the color of your mind
becomes exactly what you find
when you become together

* * * * *

I'd destroy myself
For you
In the hope that
If we one day fell apart
I could pick myself
Back up

I'd take the time
I had with you
Though my monsters
Would reveal
I had something
To lose

Isn't it worth
To never have
To wonder if
We could've jumped
Off the edge
Of the Earth
Hand in hand
And still survived..

* * * * *

Reach out
Just give me some
Of your Sanity
Then maybe I could learn
to look away
And rid myself ot his
Happy Sense of Vanity

I'm thinking
I'm breathing
I'm believing
I could really
Lose touch
With the ground
To which I'm bound

Let's see if we can
Fashion something human
Out of what I see in you
Is it made of molecules
Or is it something
To me new

* * * * *

I heard a string ring out
A metallic sound at 2am
Oddly foreign
The air is roaring
Is it the wind?
Or just the highway in the dark

Fuck you, I said
I will not close
The lids of my eyes
Until I am good and broken

* * * * *

. : paradise : .

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 03:32:58 GMT

hello- I say- I'm in Paradise
hang my head from the
Window, sweet
Of this air a Breath suffice
thirst Quench eyes Sate feet Bare

could you?
gods forbid the sun erase my Blue
for how long?
until the River no longer sings my Song
forever?
yes yes Yes, and happily After

why, wherefore
you're just drunk on
the Junk of Here Now
no No!- let me go,
to this I shall bow.

so...

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 05:14:10 GMT

i'm broke. and beat.
but jack bauer is amazing.

hmm..

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 23:57:39 GMT

"Tev ir kautkas iedzimts"... ok, mother, dear, am I an alcoholic now that I can hold my liquor? Why don't you look around you and see that everyone else knows how to have a good time, while you're left in the dust.

Beginning to have doubts about the skydiving.. people that are usually pretty open-minded are telling me to wait.. is it really that dangerous? Aren't you ALMOST guaranteed to be okay if you use good equipment and learn carefully??

And now to fail

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 05:36:06 GMT

.. when I've thought about this so long. Why does it always come down to money? How frustrating is it that I might not be able to study out of the country now due to lack of it? This really, really, really is the only thing that will give me an edge so that I can obtain the education I NEED in order to start EARNING some serious bucks in the first place. My life just needs to go a full circle, what the hell?? Where and what is my karma doing?

a day like today

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 21:23:10 GMT

one of those days where you decide to be deliciously ambitious. my work-study hours have gone from 5 to 12- yay! i will be able to afford more than groceries! video ipod here i come. maybe i'm on my way to my million. :S in our 13 minute macroecon discussion session today, we had to say what we would do with our million... i said "travel, travel, travel", but i suppose i could get an aston martin too. scheduled a pre-law appointment, and registered for free credit overloading. hell yes. now let me sleep.

how to sleep

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 02:14:29 GMT

how does one find the right way to sleep? the right hours, the right amount of time, the right way? at school i have the problem of having to wake up way too early every morning, which exhausts me during the day, so that by dinnertime i'm ready to crash. odd that i would get my energy back late at night, though, and thus prolong the actually "going to sleep." and there goes the same cycle that starts all over again.

here at home, i can't break the habit of retiring before 2am and waking before noon.. it's like a new circadian rhythm that i've established, despite the lack of difference in light presence. i think it is screwing with me though, so i wish i could learn to control it in a more advantageous way. it makes me horribly disappointed to find that i cannot for the life of me find anything online on circadian meditation or sleep yoga.. what would be more perfect than being able to rest up your body in one tenth of the time?

to win

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 23:17:03 GMT

People confuse me. They play so many games.. and I don't know why I even care, when I DON'T care about my so-called "opponent". They can go jump off a bridge, and I won't be any more worse for the wear. Then why try to make sense of the game? Maybe because I want to win. I want them to be under my power, even if I am not under theirs. I've always managed to hide what they all do to me, now I want to be able to see what I do to them.

time for action

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 04:21:04 GMT

i decided it's time to pull every aspect of my life together.. not that i'm a complete mess, but there are areas of improvement. now that my career path has changed completely, maybe i can learn to lead a lifestyle to match it. start eating better, work out a helluva lot more, learn better study habits, because it is definitely not gonna get any easier if i go to law school. it'll be interesting to see how fast i can do it all. i think it'd be cool to master it all, and not have to worry about bad habits bringing me down and controlling ME. i'd like to have a bit of self-discipline when it comes to things other than alcohol.

speaking of which, i need to clean up my room and start packing for going back to my apartment and for the trip to arizona.. i really should start planning some other trips, too, actually. like to L.A... and sanja and i are supposed to go to tunisia in the summer. yeah right, i think i need to hijack a cargo plane for all the traveling i want to do.

a new beginning

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 06:23:38 GMT

maybe i should start this again. not that i ever entertained the idea of having a constant repartee with myself in the form of an online journal going, but i did think it was nifty at one point. and it beats talking to yourself.

so. i think it's odd that we are one and all obsessed with the online world nowadays.. it's the only way anything gets done.. how did we do it 10 years ago? everyone must've been so disconnected from one another, locked away in their houses with no words or thoughts or art or stories or news to share with eachother. now, turning on your computer is a necessary part of the day. i know that i'm going to have to take a vacation from it eventually, but i can't imagine it happening now.

what else is on my mind? how about irina derevko, and the tricky web she weaves. i hear she is coming back "badder than ever"?? what the fucking hell is that about, i don't know why or how i am so attached to the happenings in a telly show, but it hurts me to think about that. i don't want to second guess her amazingness and feel this sinking feeling in my stomach every time i'm doing something and i suddenly remember that her motives have yet to be revealed and her allegiances are uncertain. don't even get me started on sark and sloane, they are just as bad. communicate, communicate! you fucking fictional characters.

Who's your 24 threesome? by Glory_L
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Your 24 threesome is:	Jack Bauer & Hamri Al-Assad